My Sense Of Impending Doom Is No Longer Impending.

I have always had a sense of impending doom anway, and it has come to be normality for me. Logic: sooner or later, something really bad will happen. That is a statistically vague enough statement to be true, but not quite vague enough for the deep survival networks of the brain, which will flood one in adrenaline and sleeplessness at the least excuse.

I sometimes have an earthquake in my head when I try to sleep.

Anything I say about the Japanese would be an understatement; the sorrow we all have for them and their beautiful country and culture.

The recent earthquake in New Zealand was not even The Big One we have been anticipating; it was relatively small in size and unrelated to the Alpine Fault, which is the spine of our country, and so ominously loaded.

Natural disasters seem to have abounded recently. Either the media is just getting better at reporting all the horrors that normally go on and cultivating fear, or the universe is actually turning against us. Anyway, the general consensus seems to be that the world is fucked. Besides, it is nearly March 20th, and it is also nearly 2012
[two popular current doomsday predictions]

Historically, it's only(?) the minority phenomenon known as Western Civilization that expects safety and longevity, gravely complaining to the universe when it does not comply. Spiritually, we invent gods whose responsibility it is to keep us safe. But just because they 'can' does not meant they 'should', by definition. Even if they are invented.

Do give my love to Christchurch and Japan.

Sincerely,
kattabrained

One day they invented a god to keep them safe but he escaped and showed them a higher existence, one with danger and pain and beauty, the last of which had never before been seen because it can only exist in the presence of danger/pain/evil....














http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcrebW1hHCo
This is from one of my favourite albums by Deliriou5?; in fact it was the first album i ever bought. I was about 12.
The album also includes song titles: Shaken Up, Did You Feel The Mountains Tremble, and You Split The Earth.

It is a lovely song.

Wynter

It rains. It is 10am on a Saturday and I have already been out for a good hours practice of Chopin on the cherch piano, and back home again, and changed my clothes. The remainder of my fish is trying desperately to get my attention from it's location on the hot stove. I have taken don't-get-sick pills, as my physiology is considering entertaining a cold. My electic blankit is on, and I have a hot water bottle. The flatmates sleep. I want to sleep more.

I am playing http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JzIK5FaC38w&feature=fvsr. Do give your brain this experience. It will make your soul a lovely place to dwell, and then who knows who will come reside in your soul with you?

I have been trying to finish my three litre bottle of milk as i bought another one yesterday [it is $1.70 a litre - how could you not? that's like pre-2000 prices.] and it is not welcome in the fridge due to its size. Luckily Dunedin is already well into it's 9 month wynter and the milk is happy on my bedroom floor.

Thus I have been consuming vast amounts of hot millky milo, and consequently drowning in serotonin.

It is lovely.